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Thursday, August 28, 2014

The Story Behind the URL

9:07 PM Posted by karasa No comments
Published August 28th, 2014

I'm not sure if it's important to explain the origin of my url/blog title, but i'm gonna do it anyway, because i'm a grownup who explain things when they don't really need to be for the sake of my own peace of mind. \

Now this is the first time that i've tried to explain a blog title, and let me tell you: it is not easy.
all of my other blog titles are puns, or self explanatory (shameless self-promotion coming up, proceed with caution)

theres
african american apparel
hi my name is kara
itskarasa.com
and k-sleazy
you can probably understand why all off these came to fruition, and if not, you don't really need to know, so don't worry about it.

Basically, it all started with an article. This article, is quite possibly, one of my favorites of all time. It's written by Molly Crabapple, who is a winner in and of herself with that name alone.

the article i'm referring to is this one: http://www.vice.com/read/we-must-risk-delight-after-a-summer-full-of-monsters

i'm not gonna link that so you'd better deal with copying and pasting



In the article, Molly explains that the world is a shithole in the most beautiful words imaginable. I'm all about it. I've never read an article that articulates all of the recent wrongdoings of mankind in such kind and poetic words. She, which is the case for many writers of VICE articles, is amazing. I literally fell in love. I wanted to pay this woman for letting me read her article, because if i have to pay for stephanie meyer's garbage writing, then i would damn sure be okay with paying for this. (Note: i don't care if you are a fan of twilight. I was too when i was 12. But looking back, the books were just straight up written poorly.

Now because of Molly's article, I felt inspired. I felt like I had to work to find joy in the world, to help Molly reach her goal of survival in this horribly unfair world. I posted the article on Facebook, and began to draft a strategy on how to make my life a lil better. I started reading all of the articles I found interesting on vice, and listening to the New Pornographers new album, to get me in the mood of improving my self worth.

after 15 minutes had past, i found myself switching between fourteen different tabs, struggling to find the content that i found so compelling just moments before. I decided to knuckle down and focus, and deleted the majority of the tabs, save for the articles i was reading, a page about a new app i was buying, and Facebook. I switched over to Facebook to figure out what was so important on the page that i had to keep it open, but i couldn't find it. delete.
2 minutes later, i open a new tab, and go to facebook.

I couldn't figure out why i was so insistent on having facebook open, and then it hit me.

the world.
that dumb fucking world that signifies notifications. That's the only thing keeping me grounded. As i scrolled through the various updates from the pages and friends that i had, i couldn't help but be disappointed with myself when i realized how little of a fuck i gave about all of them.

new photo! "Me and bae" 'like'

new status! "I think it's time for a new tattoo" 'like'

new link! "check out my long overdue ice bucket bikini challenge lol"

With every thing i scrolled past, my eyes strayed farther and farther away from the words, and towards the little world icon.

Sadly, there is nothing more exciting, and also more depressing, than getting a facebook notification. You can't deny the small flash of warmth you feel in your heart when someone likes your new profile picture or status. You also can't pretend like you don't get horribly annoyed when you think that the notification is from someone doing something nice for you, but it's instead a game request.

that's when i realized that i was horribly self absorbed. Because not only did I stopping looking at the home page of facebook, but instead i defaulted to my facebook profile. Every time I switched over, I got a glorious glimpse of my own face, and my own words.

And the reason I did this, was because I wanted people to acknowledge my status. I wanted someone to comment and say "you know she's right" so that I could comment back and be like "yeah, I felt so inspired, I'm gonna go write about it"

if that doesn't sound like the douchiest thing you've ever heard, then god bless your soul.

so the url pays homage to hopefully the lowest point in my life.



as for the title. That's a basic summary of everything i post on here. Who knows? Who cares.


bye

Introduction

8:40 PM Posted by karasa No comments
Hello!

Published August 28th, 2014

As you have probably figured out, this is a blog. My blog, specifically. This is where i'm gonna be writing from now on. and not just cool, objective and introspective blog posts about my life and how i want the world to be, or awesome sonnets that i hope VICE discovers and puts on their front page. this is where i'm going to be writing from now on. period. that includes my dumbass posts when i'm drunk/high/tired enough to seem drunk/high. and its gonna get really deep into shit. personal shit. but not that deep because i feel like keeping it public will force myself to be vague but honest. if you're still reading, good on ya, here's a little about me:

As of right now, I'm currently living in my dad's house, after moving out/being kicked out of my mom's house. I'm a college freshman at BU, and I'm starting college in January. I want to be a storyboard developer for videogame franchises, which i've been told is the stupidest career path (thanks, mom). I am agender and asexual, if you really needed to know. I label myself as a democrat but i think i may be more ignorantly liberal than that. My birthdays in October and my favorite day is Thursday, because all of my randomly "fantastic" ideas tend to occur on Thursdays (ex; the first time i handcrafted a 3.5L G-bong, the day i created this blog)

I have a few fantastic people in my life that keep me grounded, as i tend to lose sight of actual fucking reality sometimes. That being said, sometimes I'm so optimistic it's dangerous. I've got my family, my boyfriend, my friends, and strangers. I absolutely adore strangers. It may seem really creepy, but it's really interesting to me how the littlest thing that someone you've never met can affect you in more ways than you'll ever know.
(An example: Dude A is running late to a meeting one morning. He grabs his coffee and pours it into the to-go cup, but doesn't really fasten the lid. As he's racing down I-95 trying to make it from exit 14 to exit 8 in record time, he lifts the coffee to his lips. Coffee spills, he panics and crashes, and now the highway is backed up for miles due to rubbernecking. 2 hours later you find yourself trying to merge into the left lane to try and get 10 feet farther a minute faster, and when you fail, you take matters into your own hands. Soon enough you're pulled over and given a ticket for driving in the shoulder. All because Dude A slept in after marathoning GoT.)


I don't expect many people to read this, so I won't waste time trying to be polite. I curse to get the point across, so if you don't like it, you can go read some other teenagers dumbass blog. I'll also write about tv/movies if i like them enough, so expect spoilers


I don't really know what else to say, and I have another blog post idea in my head right now so i can't really keep wasting time writing this.






also: i ramble quite often
bye